Audio recording available for your convenience.It has been many weeks since my last post. Maybe some of you are wondering what the heck happened, maybe not.
This whole journey of spiritual surrender continues to take me through avenues in which I feel like I have gone totally off track. But as life would have it, they are simply avenues of healing and self discovery that perhaps just need to unfold in exactly the way that they are.
I continue to learn (with much resistance) to let go of the masks that no longer fit no matter how safe it feels to hide behind them. I am experiencing that life often unfolds in unexpected ways.
Things I felt very confident about turned out completely the opposite than what I anticipated. Faced with the ongoing challenge of uncertainty, I am discovering that maybe life is not so much about having the right resources as it is about being rightfully resourceful. As a result of the current challenges I continue to experience being acutely aware of how blessed I am in my life overall. This seems to be a recurring theme for me.
I am amazed at how much strength has been hidden behind the many masks of fear that I have held onto. I have taken risks & let go of the guilt that in the past would have caused me to feel paralyzed from anxiety and uncertainty. Now I find myself feeling delighted with myself for having the courage to stretch beyond my comfort zones, to think outside the box, and to color outside the lines, and to let go of needing outside approval or being concerned about other people’s opinions.
I am beginning to see that perhaps these ongoing challenges have been the necessary impetus to keep me moving in the direction of my dreams in spite of appearances.I encourage you to listen to your life. What is it that you are faced with that causes you discomfort or challenge, and if you were to look at the situation from a different perspective of opportunity and learning, what might it be trying to tell you, or teach you? How is it calling you to be courageous, to think anew, to change old paradigms and habits that no longer serve you? What beliefs is it reflecting back to you and are you willing to risk changing them if they no longer serve you?
I continue to learn that vulnerability takes courage, resolve, fortitude, & strength, it ain’t for sissies! Fear seems the easier answer at times, tolerable in its discomfort, but longer lasting in its impact of sorrow, pain, limitation, & living a constricted feeling life. Vulnerability can feel intensely frightening, yet I am finding that it is the super highway to the inward journey of healing, peace, & joy…it is Love in action cracking open the shell of our many masks so that we may emerge.
Wishing you peace, love, wisdom, courage, & joy,